I've had a several questions about this letter - so I'm going to give a quickie explanation. I don't know for sure if there is a lurker, but I have my suspicion.....so instead of worrying and fretting about it - I took the bull by the horns and reclaimed my right to blog freely!
I have had so many respond with their own lurker stories and the anxiety it brings - hence the open letter to all the lurkers out there, not just mine.
(added @ 2pm)
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Dear Lurker,
How ya doing?? Having a good time out there, lurking my blog but not having the you-hoo's to step up and admit it? Judging me in your silence?
For a moment, a few moments to be honest, you almost did it. You almost had me change how I handle my blog and my words. For the first time in YEARS, I almost let someone quieten me, change how I wanted to speak. I was shocked and saddened - I love the freedom of my space, my words. I've always been proud of my ability to speak up, to tell it like it is.
But then some wonderful friends reminded me "WHAT the hell are you doing? It's your space, your words!" and it resonated with me. Have I ever said anything harmful, derogatory or plain mean? No. Do I mention names? No. So why did knowing a lurker was out there potentially censor my thoughts?
I struggled with this last night and here's what I came up with. I was afraid. Afraid of the unknown, the possible confrontation, the anger built up inside of me. But, once I started to REALLY think about you lurking on my post, reading my thoughts - I chose to giggle. That's right - giggle. I've done NOTHING wrong. Like I said above no names, no places, no nothing.
I will write, I will photograph and I will sing, swinging from the rafters if that is what I feel like posting about. You want to lurk - be my guest! If this is how you get your kicks - how sad for you. Maybe you should start your own blog.....leave me the link - I'll stop by.
But know this, my dear lurker - I will not let you censor my thoughts, my words - ME. Deal with it, get over it, or better yet, don't lurk here anymore.
T.
PS - to my dear friends who were so kind with their words and encouragement last night - I sincerely thank you and love you.